A relationship

I am neither being able to keep it,
nor being able to kill it,

neither able to feed it,
nor being able to starve it,

neither being able to embrace it,
nor being able to divorce it,

all I have is double-mindedness,
and the pain that come's with it,

I do not want to risk things,
for I am not sure I am good for it,

and she keeps on flirting without accepting,
not sure what her intentions are behind it.